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Some days, even courage needs a costume
Blue Socks
On the small rituals we invent to hold ourselves together
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She bought the blue socks on a day she doesn’t remember clearly.
Not because it was happy or sad — but because nothing in it stood out enough to resist forgetting.
The socks were folded too neatly in the store. She remembers that. The blue was darker than she would usually choose. Almost navy. Almost black in certain light.
She wore them first on a morning when she needed to say something that had been sitting in her throat for months.
It came out cleaner than expected. Measured. Calm.
Later, someone told her she had been “so composed.” She wasn’t sure whether that was a compliment.
After that, the blue socks became part of a pattern she didn’t admit was a pattern.
Blue for the days she needed to feel intact.
White for days, she preferred to blur at the edges.
Grey for days when she suspected she was both.
It wasn’t superstition. She knew that. But she also knew that when she wore blue, she stood differently. Her shoulders…
