What a Fucking Month.

Medically Problematic Holidays

The highlights:

• As I mentioned in an earlier post, a flatmate had a medical emergency. They’re still in the hospital, just left ICU this past week.
• Several other members of my chosen family had medical emergencies, some involving the hospital.
• I’m sleeping mostly in increments of 1–2 hours. When I manage the 2 hours and hit the REM stage, I abruptly wake up. This sometimes includes panic reactions to the point of tremors pulling joints out of place. This has been going on for over two weeks. I’ve had to pop my jaw back in a few times.
• The sleep issues mean my chronic pain is even worse than usual, because my body isn’t getting due opportunity to make the standard hormones that increase the pain awareness threshhold.
• All this stress is causing some weird health shit of mine to fire hard. For example, I picked up a small can of soup the other night, and my elbow started slipping out of place.

…and that’s just the major stuff.

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Thus why my updates petered out. My language study has also slowed, and I missed around half the month, but I’m still on-track at least to have familiarity with hiragana this month. I’ll probably post an update about that tomorrow.

I hope all of you are having a good holiday season (or whenever you’re reading this)!

In honor of National Novel Writing Month, I’m writing (nigh?) daily peeks into my life as someone with constant pain who is medically unusual, affecting my approach to life. You can support this project via https://ko-fi.com/carradee.