Finding Yourself Through What Breaks You.
Allowing rejection, discomfort, and uncertainty to reveal what has always been whole within you.
You will encounter rejection until you allow that rejection to create the powerful ground within you. Everything in this universe will tell you that you are worthless, that you aren’t valuable and that your feelings aren’t important, will tell you that you aren’t good enough… until you find it within you, you discover how valuable and worthy and meaningful you are within you… until you go through all those layers of pain and self-sabotage- find a little spark of light within you that will bring an inner understanding of why you are experiencing this, that will show you that there is always a way and a possibility to feel ease.
Nothing outside is capable of shaking something that is strongly rooted within you, and if something outside of you shakes your beliefs, your inner perception of yourself, of your capabilities, of the strength that lives in your DNA, of the power that purely exists within you, if something outside of you can shake it, can blind you enough to believe in your own powerlessness- it means that you subconsciously doubt your power, your meaning, your value- and the things, the people, the situations simply trigger something, a belief or a fear or a doubt that already lives within you.
You see, nothing can make you feel less human by telling you you aren’t a human, right? So why is something around you able to make you meaningless and powerless, if you yourself know it isn’t true… then you yourself, on a subconscious level, doubt it or fear your own power, fear the responsibility that it takes to step into your power and to live in your infinite potential.
You haven’t discovered yet that you are so, that this power and meaning and value all live within you. And all things that trigger you to feel powerless and worthless- simply present you with this possibility to see the deeper truth within you and to open to be able to discover it, to unlock it within your body.
No one in this entire universe is able to reject you if you do not reject yourself at some point or level, if you fully believe in your power and worth within- nothing in this entire world can make you feel unworthy and any less powerful- because what lives within you is unshakable.
And if your worth and sense of power are shaken by the world around you, by people, by situations… it means you have not fully discovered your worth and your power within you- so everything around you will keep triggering you to feel unworthy and powerless not to make you suffer or struggle, no… it will trigger you so that you finally pay attention to what is within you, to what you subconsciously believe, not even realizing and noticing that you limit your own self, limit your own power… it will trigger you not so that you struggle but so that you find your way back to your wholeness and break free and fly even so high and with so much ease, the ease that comes from knowing who you are, from knowing your power and your value.
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When you reach the knowing within your body- only then you start truly understanding them and start being able to live them. As a human being cannot know through the mind, one can truly know only through feeling, and you start to feel the knowing within your body only when you gain it through the physical experiences, situations that trigger you, bringing you the possibility to liberate.
When you feel broken is when you discover the depth of your own wholeness and its unconditional existence within you.
When you feel the most weak, powerless, and helpless- is when you are presented with a possibility to discover the power that lives within you so purely and unconditionally, is when you discover how powerful and whole and unbreakable you are beneath the illusion of brokenness.
And those triggers are what make you reach the knowing within you, to wake up the knowing within your body, to embody the knowledge that you know in your mind inside your body and start living by it- and start living as you are infinitely whole, infinitely powerful, infinitely valuable and such a uniquely beautiful being as you are here and now- start choosing how to look at your life from being whole and powerful, from knowing it with your body- in other words, start living what you are preaching, start living your Truth inside your body. Because to know something is one thing- to live it is different. To know you can read a book, you can go to therapy, you can study a course… but to live it you have to embody it inside your body, embody the knowledge to flow freely through life as a human being… to live it, to live your truth, you have to feel through the pain and the discomfort of your emotions and release, to live the freedom you have to feel through the discomfort of being so locked and helpless when the physical experiences lock you and make you feel helpless… and through feeling the depth of that discomfort and pain- you rise, you release what has been blocking your system from living the truth, from being free- and become a little more free.
You must allow yourself to get lost in the unknown, in the void of not knowing, of not moving anywhere, of feeling stuck and confused — so that you find yourself again, find a little particle of your truth within you on a cellular level, so that you find the little particle of the truth that lives within your body- you must create the space from the noise, from the hustle and impatience to simply be and feel the discomfort of being completely out of control, of allowing yourself to not know anything- as that’s exactly where you find the inner capacity to flow, to trust the unknown and feel the comfort in not knowing… there where you find the strength within you to stay within the discomfort- you allow the flow of life to flow through you even more deeply and show you the deeper truth, the deeper feeling of what is right, and when that deeper feeling awakens within you- the confusion fades away, and you simply know, know within your system, within your body, with the depth of your DNA, you feel this truth expanding through the cells of your body, making you feel so alive — and that sense cannot be unclear as the feeling is the purest and truest thing a human being is capable of experiencing.
And to be able to feel that truth that rises with the life that’s flowing through you, you must return to the life force within you- so to create the space from the noise and the reactions- and sit within the discomfort — become fully empty and surrender the control and the need to know, the need to figure it out, returning to the silence and inner emptiness- and at that exact spot the answer starts naturally arising within you, the life starts freely flowing through you, fulfilling you with the wisdom, the clarity and the infinite amount of possibilities and solutions and wisdom that you have been searching for.
For that phenomenon to awaken within you and lead you through life and show you so deeply what is true, you must first stop thinking about what is true and stop trying to know as that is an empty attempt of your mind to control- simply allow silence to bring you the answer and the understanding of that truth.
The inner knowing cannot be mistaken; once you have heard it, once you have felt it, once you have discovered it within you, within your body, it starts living within the knowledge of your body within your subconscious- and you start to simply purely exist, flowing with that knowledge, beneath the need to control and beneath any attachments of your mind. Once you know it within your body, nothing can shake it; once it is awakened within you, once you remember with the depth of your cells- nothing outside of you is powerful enough to make you forget, and there you rise as the most powerful and authentic version of yourself.
To rise, you must choose to feel, feel rejected, feel scared, feel down, feel broken, feel confused, lost, alone, feel abandoned… feel beneath the judgement of your mind and don’t create pressure on yourself for having those thoughts, feelings, and emotions, for not fully seeing your inner purpose or value or meaning… it is okay to feel everything and anything, as all feelings and inner experiences are little particles of your path, that make you stronger and strengthen your inner light, your inner sense of self.
