ressociation

by joybun

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blaktangldhart
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blaktangldhart Such a f**king gorgeous release. It made tears stream down my face for the first time in too long. Thank you for sharing this with the world. It stays on my ipod from now on. Favorite track: and i became nothing but an old dream of bluest sky now swallowed.
Adam Andrade
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Adam Andrade These builds are so mesmerizing and terrifying in this warm and all consuming way, almost like being enveloped in light Favorite track: grieving the relief of the angels burden.
stygalalexander
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stygalalexander instantly one of my favorite projects of the last few years. so much time, care, effort, and emotion was put into this and it shows in every track Favorite track: and i became nothing but an old dream of bluest sky now swallowed.
Luke
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Luke Out of the blue debut to start 2026 (with thanks to Uboa for the shout out – and the mastering). A total spark of new-school emo/screamo/post-hardcore, channeling a wide assortment of the old guards while feeling totally modern, exciting, and unburdened by reference. It is burdened by the weight and state of the world, while being an album basked in light and dark conversations held in daylight. "bravely // joy becomes my name" </3 Favorite track: ignorance was bliss until ignorance was sin.
Uboa
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Uboa proud of my bun for this incredible release. screamo isn't dead, although this touches many other genres too. knowing what this is about makes it even harder. Favorite track: grieving the relief of the angels burden.
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it's been so long just where has all the time gone we've taken almost seven whole years, or thereabouts, since i last saw her and i don't really think about her anymore i can barely even remember her voice, or her face or her love, or her hate in the first couple years how i wept, how i wept and i wrote, many songs so many songs, so many albums so i could tell the story give justice to the memory but memories fade away over time, just like feelings after all of these years of holding on to them i threw them away, all of the songs that i wrote about her death but how many more does it take til i have no verses left? i tried to forget then it happened again and again and again i used to check in on all of the people i loved just in case a tragedy struck then one day i stopped and three of their lives were taken it was such a vivid pattern, crystal and clear so i abandoned myself to nourish the rest for how many more will it take til there’s nobody left oh my heart it bleeds love this burden is heavy i should put myself above and so i took flight i flew on away from divine obligation i disposed of my sacred foundation and now i am left without purpose at all i am hollow, empty void of all but the vaguest notion of a joy that one day supposedly makes its return inside of the hole that was once filled with duty there is nothing but grief and despair i yearn for the light of my halo now thrown away but in vain for now i have learned that the light had shined so bright it left me blind to my story i’m so sorry that i can't keep the angel’s duty but i couldn't see myself then it left and when the weight finally lifted i couldn't breathe i thought it would be easier just to forget and so i promptly forgot everything even myself
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i thought i'd pieced the world together never wondering never looking at what was really there if it all disappeared how would i know? if i disappeared how would i know? am i aware? or do i dissociate reality? do i dissociate myself? do i remove myself from it all? did i even know a thing at all? never take for granted all the things you know as real never take for granted your perception of the world never take for granted that you know the truth but then again, there is a bliss in ignorance i was floating through life believing in my knowing thinking that i knew what was me but then i finally looked inside there was more than had met my eye the floating turned to stumbling my bliss disappeared from the very start i never knew i never knew i nor other so i took a deep breath i looked in the mirror i spoke to myself and then i spoke back i spoke words of fear fear and loneliness words that still haunt me words that i still hold to my chest no i didn't know my feelings i didn't know the truth but now i don't think that i can forget she was terrified with a fear that had hid itself inside she held herself back never wanted me to know and now all i know is shame shame i wasn't protecting my kin i should have looked within at least now i’ve learned that ignorance becomes sin come closer with your heart i'll kiss you make it better i know you run away you told me honestly noʎ ɟo ǝpısuı ʇno ʇı ǝpıɥ ll’ı uǝɥʇ lıʇ ʇnq ǝɯ pǝǝu noʎ ɟı ǝɹǝɥ ǝq ll’ı ʇno ǝɯoɔ oʇ pǝuǝʇɥɓıɹɟ ooʇ ɯ,ı ʇno ɓuıɯoɔ ɟo pǝɹɐɔs ɯ,ı puɐ pnol puɐ ʇɥɓıɹq puɐ ɓıq ooʇ s’ʇı ʇno ɓuıʞǝǝd ɹǝʌǝu 'ɯooɹ ʎɯ ǝpısuı pǝʞɔol noʎ ɟo ǝpısuı ǝpıɥ ll,ı 'ʎɐp ʇɐɥʇ lıʇ os puɐ loɹʇuoɔ ɹǝpun llɐ ʇı ǝʌɐɥ noʎ ʍouʞ ı ʎɹɐɔs sı plɹoʍ ǝɥʇ 'pǝɹɐɔs ʎllɐǝɹ ɯ’ı uı ɓuıʞɔǝɥɔ ɹoɟ sʞuɐɥʇ puɐ ollǝɥ where do i go? where do i go? her hands, or my heart? where do i go, when you finally piece together who you are? where do i go? i’ve left this tale to be told i never wanted you to see i had never thought that you were me but now i can see i can see every part of myself and i don't think that i can forget
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dreaming of a garden arising to it all my eyes meet with two angels beyond the river's maw they look to me with moments speak in concepts awaken my fears and yet so soon, taking flight they left me here i thought i saw the face of god, when it vanished cut in two i was struck by a weight ripped away a part of me that held my fate it’s begging to resurface but i don't notice steeped in a toxic bliss, i lay my head unaware of the conclusions my mind would be led in night two lights transpire in dreams my mind transpires did i grow another me? did i blur the memory? arising in the garden angels 'cross the river's roar they speak to me in tongues they make exodus leaving me shaken to my core and now nothing makes sense left only with my lament never inspired nothing condemns everything ends the nothing will break my ascent the nothing can see me at all the nothing will take me home it breathes so loud taken in its arms, i feel a sense of safety from these visions of myself embracing the night, the nothing would hold me safe away from the light in bittersweet nostalgia i begged to find a shred of life but nothing nothing nothing arrived returning to the garden in endless search forevermore i spot a shiny little fairy washed upon the river's shore she speaks to me with promise promises of love, and of joy if i so choose to stay i turned my tail and yet she held faith that i'd return one day but never again don't hold those promises make space for what's left inside my mind there is a sprite that could combine with us we let it go we let it go
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it starts with a sign it takes you in, and shows you your mind through the day, through the night it pleads, stand up and fight but never again oh, i can see the distant colour but oh, it's far too bright forever i blind myself moonrise, darksign leading me endless from the spiral of reaction to everything i see and oh the colour, the colour blinded from colour i lost my eyes sitting here waiting for myself where did she go? away to another lost scene to another old dream that i had a few lifetimes ago all i know is that i’m all that's left and all by myself, i sit and i wonder if i'll ever see, with my own eyes, the sunrise bravely joy becomes my name but lately i’ve been far away the sunlight much too bright i've lost sight find a burden of purpose show the world joy from your lost bliss but the colour oh the colour i’m blinded and i still can't find myself was it transcendence, a simple unbalance that caused misremembrance inside my mind was it elation, or dissociation that lost the location of the piece i can't find i know i've been kind i know i have love for myself so why did i run away? lately i've been far away hiding from myself til i find myself in the skies me and i by ourselves i talk of an old dream an angel of light the spell of a fairy rays of gold and white, and filled with colour vibrant colour colour deep inside my mind to light the way then she came filled with colour vibrant colour

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released January 9, 2026

becky joy - vocals, guitars, bass, piano, drum programming, songwriting, composition and mixing 🐇

xandra metcalfe - mastering and album artwork 🐇

a massive thanks to my beautiful housemates bread raven and helen, my incredible girlfriend xandra, my wonderful friends cyn violet and monday, as well as many many others too numerous to name, for all of your unending support in each and every one of my times of need, without which this album would not have come to fruition. i would say i owe a tremendous debt to each of you, and yet i know you would each insist otherwise. i am truly so grateful to know and to love all of you. 🐇

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