Got a Like.
It happened after years.
The date was 21st May 2025. I was having a flashback moment — reliving a mix of emotions like love, pain, and grief. I shared all this with my sister. And randomly, I came across the song “Until I Found You” by Stephen Sanchez. The lyrics hit me deeply:
“I would rather die than let you go… I would never fall in love again.”
Let me tell you the story behind it.
It goes back to around February 2023. That month was a little painful for me. It was my first Valentine’s Day with an actual girlfriend — someone I truly loved. I was also sick for two weeks during that time. All I wanted was to talk to her, just one message from her. But nothing happened. She was busy attending someone’s wedding.
On Valentine’s Day, I kept hoping she would come to my flat, hug me, and show me some love. But nothing. All I received was a short message:
“Sorry, I was busy at a function and I’m really tired. Good night.”
No love, no affection. Just that.
Being the good guy, I tried to understand. I told myself, “It’s okay. Things like this happen.”
Then, around the 23rd of March, there was a function at my college. I had her phone with me for some reason, and a message popped up from someone. It said:
“Hey, I’m really sorry I missed your birthday…”
It was a long paragraph. I don’t remember all of it, and honestly, I don’t want to. But I knew I needed to save it. So, I quickly took screenshots and messaged them to myself — without leaving a trace.
Later, at home, I read every single message. That’s when I realized… she wasn’t busy at any wedding. She had been talking to him.
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I confronted her that night. She went blank and cried a lot — just like I did. She told me, “He started talking to me, and it wasn’t really my fault.”
And me? Being the guy I am, I forgave her. She said, “I have no one else to talk to. You’re the only one who truly cares about me. I’ll never make the same mistake again. Please forgive me.”
And I did. I fucking did.
Love can make you do things you’d never do in a healthy state of mind. But I loved her. I couldn’t stand to see tears in her eyes. I just didn’t have the heart.
Now, coming back to the present. I posted that song on social media. Recently, I also unblocked her, so she could see me on WhatsApp.
And guess what?
She liked that song.
She actually did.
It might seem small, but to me, it meant everything. I was happy. And sad. Because she remembered the song.
She remembered it.
Back in February 2023, I later realized she had already started to drift away because of that guy. She once told me that I was “someone above a friend, but below a boyfriend” — yeah, like a pendulum stuck in between.
And I agreed to that. Because I loved her. I just wanted to be close to her, no matter what.
Every morning, when we met, I used to sing that song to her:
“I would rather die than let you go, Juliet to your Romeo…”
I was trying to show her how deeply I loved her. What I would do for her. But she never really noticed. Never gave that song any attention.
It wasn’t until everything fell apart, after the storm, that she understood how much I truly loved her. But by then, it was too late.
Still, I believe that people make mistakes. And if we truly love someone, it becomes our responsibility to forgive them. And I loved her — more than anything.
Now?
Now I don’t really listen to that song anymore. Or maybe… I just avoid it.
Because that song holds too many memories.
