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00:00I'm divorced and I can't wait to not hold this last name anymore oh my god this year at New York
00:20City Pride I will be performing at a street festival New York City is one of the biggest
00:26prides ever so I just hope that I kill it on stage after all I've been through with my ex-husband I
00:42cannot wait for this celebration I deserve this
00:50you are planning to have a baby with us right oh we have not had the best experience so far
01:00we're trying to get a sense of this new fertility clinic because this is our last shot if this
01:05doesn't work that's it the last surrogate we had we found out some stuff that we didn't like
01:12do you just surround yourself with a horse
01:17you want she's your girlfriend okay girlfriend
01:24yeah we got our car you enjoying that corn Kenny I'm enjoying the corn Armando I see I love it
01:45that's good I want to buy it it is good I'm Kenny I'm 62 originally from St. Petersburg Florida
01:52and I'm Armando I'm 37 and I'm from San Felipe Baja California Mexico sorry that threw me off I just
01:59meant to say Felipe all right this is one cool building cheers to the building to be in here
02:06cheers our 90-day journey began about eight years ago we met online on a gay father support group
02:14and we became fast friends on there hey how you doing good how are you good I miss you
02:21miss you too I came to Mexico to meet up with them and then we decided that we wanted to be together
02:28so I had to pack my whole life up in St. Pete and decided I'm gonna move to Mexico to be the love of my
02:35life baby we got engaged really quick as soon as I hit Mexico it was like within a week and then it
02:47took about a year and a half before we got married
02:49and we're more in love and stronger than ever right definitely
03:02do you think you like Mexico as much as you thought you would more or less really I love it
03:11the culture the people everything people are nice I mean the food is I really come into my own with
03:18Mexican cuisine when I met Armando he had a little daughter who was just four years old at the time
03:25Hannah I had four adult children on my own I even had a four-year-old grandson here you want some hot
03:31dog and about three years ago we decided to expand our family through surrogacy we found an egg donor then
03:39we created some embryos and we found a surrogate as well but after a while we were very unhappy so we
03:44decided to end our relationship with them and our fertility clinic so tomorrow we have a really
03:49important decision to make about our future family is it good yeah so good we're on our way to the new
04:03in vitro clinic that we chose it's only like three or four blocks from our house
04:07we're trying to get a sense of this new fertility clinic because we want to be confident comfortable
04:30with them because this is our last shot if this doesn't work and we don't feel good about it
04:36that's it okay well very nice to meet you nice to meet you nice to meet you great so I spoke to the
04:47Dr. Giovanni and he told me that you were planning to have a baby with us right oh fun hoping we have
04:54not had the best experience so far we're on a three-year journey on this the last surrogate we had
05:00we really had a connection with her we had an emotional bond with her we really tried to be
05:05involved with her life and let her involved in our life and then we found out some stuff that we
05:10didn't like we don't know how emotionally involved we want to be with the surrogate this time our hearts
05:17took a real beating with our last surrogate we felt in the dark many times so we decided not to move
05:23forward with them I told me you have six embryos right yeah if you would want to have for example a
05:32daughter or a son boy or girl like choose the sex no we don't want to know um we also don't even know
05:40exactly who the biological dad will be we called it the milkshake like we don't know whose it is
05:46okay it's gonna be the what do you call it luck of the draw luck of the draw and see what happens so
05:53okay right now we have all our confidence in you guys and part of us sharing also some of our story and
05:59background is um so you understand well guys remember i'm going to be with you at every part
06:06of the journey thanks to you for giving us this opportunity again and we won't let you down thank
06:12you thank you it was very nice meeting you thank you gabriella's energy and confidence made us feel
06:20really good about this clinic so i'm really excited we're still gonna be cautiously optimistic but i think
06:25we may have found our new clinic fingers crossed it's gonna work for us thanks love
06:32okay where are we going to the park all right daddy's gonna meet us at the park in a few minutes
06:45he had to finish up something at the house can you believe in another year you'll be in high school
06:50yeah that's freaking crazy because you look like a seven-year-old
06:54throughout all the bad things we had been going through with our previous clinic
07:01we didn't let hannah know because we didn't want to break her heart or stress or worry
07:05so she she's not up to date on anything she might even think we're not moving forward anymore
07:11with the process because it's been so long but we want to talk to her about it and i think now
07:15it's the right moment to do so yeah
07:17all right did you tell her we had to talk or anything because i know she gets nervous
07:26just like me she overthinks when she gets told we have to talk
07:29did you no i haven't said a word to her we were just playing
07:33what are you gonna say well it's about having a baby
07:39i mean i was expecting her to maybe jump up and down with joy
08:09that we were still moving forward with having a child
08:12i mean it's probably our fault in a way we were trying to protect her
08:15we didn't for the last almost two years really talk about it because we weren't sure what was
08:20going on we were having so many problems and we didn't want to burden her with all the issues
08:25we were having is it is the main thing you just worry that you wouldn't get attention
08:30yeah i i can swear to you and i can promise you and i know your daddy can too that that wouldn't
08:41be the case you know we tried to do this and it didn't work and we thought about trying one more
08:50time and if it doesn't work it doesn't work and then we're just one more time call it a day but
08:56we want your support in this too you need time to think about it a little bit
09:03yeah
09:05it's really hard to see hannah upset like this i guess we're just gonna have to give it time
09:12i mean i do think hannah might warm up to the idea so we'll just wait and see
09:16today i am going to get a new driver's license so i'm trying to get myself a little bit more dolled
09:39up than normal because it is the picture i have to stare at for the next four years
09:42my name is rachel i am 40 years old and i live in albuquerque new mexico
09:47after being married for over seven years i'm divorced and i could not be more thrilled about
09:53that so today i'm gonna go make sure that my driver's license states that and shows that
10:00every day for me because i can't wait to not hold this last name anymore
10:04my 90-day journey began almost eight years ago when i met a man named john who lives in england
10:12we met on a karaoke app i thought he was cute i thought he was gorgeous
10:20oh hello look at your hair yeah it's fuller when we decided to become a couple i was pregnant with
10:28my daughter lucy from my previous relationship and we met up in person when my little one lucy
10:35was only eight months old it was magical i almost immediately fell in love with him
10:40my next trip to see him in england six months later we got married like that fast you are now husband
10:51and wife please kiss you gorgeous bride well done
10:54i thought that it would be a happily ever after ending but it was not
11:05i received a message from someone who i knew
11:12she reached out alleging that john cheated on me for seven and a half years
11:21according to her he also sent pics on tinder during this entire time as well
11:28i don't know if it's like 100 certain but i'm confident in in what she's told me
11:34so he um can go dine a hole
11:39all right it's time
11:44when i officially got my divorce paperwork back this week the first thing i wanted to do after
11:55that was run straight to the dmv and get my last name changed absolutely zero association
12:01with my ex-husband this is the person that i shared a last name with and i could not be more disgusted
12:10and quite frankly disappointed in myself by ignoring all of the red flags for so long
12:15my last trip to see him was by far the worst trip i've ever had the physical touch during that time
12:25was few and far between i felt unattractive he
12:30i just didn't realize this bothered me so much
12:43like in hindsight i see it now
12:53he's cheating on me the entire time
12:58i don't i hate him
13:03i'm so excited to go to the dmv of all places that's a first
13:11i've lost 30 pounds so
13:14actually about 270 pounds if we're going to include the dead weight i left back in england
13:19so i'm excited to have a different driver's license picture
13:22but i'm also getting my maiden name back
13:24i'm gonna get me back
13:26it's a new chapter in my life and it's gonna be all about me for once
13:31okay
13:32i am going in
13:35i know that the dmv can be a real pain so i am really hoping that they don't give me too much
13:42trouble with this name change i will beg if that's what it takes
13:46i did it i did it i did it look look look look look
13:56it's me again i'm me again oh my god legitimately like the most exciting feeling
14:06i've had probably better than my marriage
14:10hey little boy want to play a little game want to show us how quick you can turn after
14:16fame and how fast your ex-wife can get rid of your name
14:26take all your trauma
14:28out of all the houses that we've seen so far have you been excited about any of the movie
14:32i don't know
14:36i want to like a really big room really big room
14:40that's the fun part about house hunting though they're all different
14:45during my entire marriage with john i never considered trying to buy a house because i was
14:50waiting for him to come to the united states but he was denied the first visa and denied again
14:56and again because of his criminal past
15:00but now that i'm divorced my god i want a house that i can call my own
15:05so that's what i'm doing ready lucy yeah let's go say hi to shayna
15:09oh hi shayna hi good how are you doing good
15:16lucy or am i shayna yeah hello hi shayna hi you ready to show me this house i sure am i'm ready to
15:22do it all right
15:23okay so as you can see they're doing some renovations to finish to get it ready to go
15:31on the market okay is it a half bath downstairs or just like
15:35just the toilet or just just a powder room so it's a half s toilet and sink toilet and sink
15:40that's good that's good because i went to a bathroom in england once with just the toilet
15:44and no sink and that was weird so that was also on my list you want to pick a bedroom yeah okay all right
15:49let's go house hunting has proven to be much more stressful than i thought it would be
15:56it's either one i can't afford that i love or one that i can't afford and i don't love but maybe i
16:02am being a little too picky oh a red room wow this is big brown and red room yeah yeah what do you
16:12think uh i like it look at that big window a huge window the sun is setting so you're gonna have lots
16:18of light pouring in okay okay one more to go what else do we have is this the big room will be the
16:25primary bedroom okay look at that big closet are you sure this is in my budget it is in your budget
16:34girl this house is great and if it weren't for my job as a technical specialist i wouldn't be able
16:40to afford this place but thank goodness my job is good and now that i'm free i am more than willing to
16:45put my hard-earned money into a brand new home what do you think lucy do you want it yeah are you sure
16:52yeah okay i think i'm finally done getting ready for tonight i'm a little nervous even though i've lost
17:12way and i'm still pretty insecure about the way i look so i'm going to ask carol what she thinks about
17:18my bland outfit with my divorce and now i'm moving into a new home i need a girl celebration like no
17:26one's business carol you want to see my outfit i've been waiting for you my friends are taking me to a
17:33male review show tonight and we're going to make this the most epic divorce celebration there ever was
17:42okay what do you think like is it okay you look gorgeous yeah you look you're really pretty you look
17:49hot thanks so i kind of want everybody to know that you're available so i got you a little something
17:55i shall announce you queen rachel oh i'm being crowned for the evening you're being crowned right
18:04now i'm being all right i accept oh wow
18:13i am divorced as and i cannot wait for this celebration i deserve this
18:25thank you for coming should we go find our seats yeah
18:44yeah
18:49all right
18:49ladies if we have anyone recently divorced here in the house
18:56come on women you need to get you outside here
18:58get out there women
19:14i am self-imploding right now
19:25this sort of show exceeds all my expectations
19:39this is literally the best night of my life better than my wedding
19:46one thousand percent better than my wedding
19:51this year has already been full of so many amazing surprises
19:55i got a divorce i got a house i got touched by greek gods
20:02i feel like life will naturally propel you in the right direction once you let go of toxicity and
20:09the things holding you back and i absolutely cannot wait to continue with the past that i'm on
20:20i'm on
20:22i'm on
20:23i'm on
20:25i'm on
20:27You see that river is so cool.
20:44I'm not getting caught.
20:49It's over.
20:52Yeah.
20:53Yeah.
20:55My name is Danielle.
20:56I'm 45 and I live in Cap Cana.
20:59My name is Johan.
21:00I am 35 years old.
21:04I live in Cap Cana.
21:07I know this is really surprising because the last time
21:09that you guys saw us, we were getting a divorce.
21:12But Johan and I decided to work things out.
21:14He was really there for me during a family emergency.
21:17And so I kind of fell in love with him all over again.
21:26I never thought in a million years that I would be
21:36able to look at this face and not want to punch it.
21:48Johan and I recently decided to start a business together.
21:51And we wanted to lead excursions for tourists
21:53in Dominican Republic.
21:54So today, we're trying out an ATB tour with our friends.
22:04I first met Johan in 2021 at a resort in Dominican Republic.
22:14I stayed at the hotel, he was a personal trainer,
22:16and I thought he was so irresistible.
22:19And after just five months of dating, we got married.
22:22Oh, I love you.
22:24Oh, I love you.
22:26In our lives together, I know that we wait for a lot of good days.
22:30I love you.
22:37Throughout our time together, Johan and I had a lot of fights about women that he was in contact with.
22:43He always said that these were just clients from the resort.
22:47The other day, a woman wrote to me on social media
22:49and told me that she has been in a relationship with my husband
22:54for two years, since a month before we got married.
22:56I started digging more. I went through his computer,
22:58and I found evidence of other women that he's been in relationships with.
23:03Now.
23:04I was going to file for divorce, but before I got a chance to,
23:07my grandmother passed away.
23:10I was in a really bad place,
23:12and Johan reached out to me, and he offered me a lot of support.
23:16Even though I was still really angry with him,
23:18he was there for me when I needed him the most.
23:21So I started talking to Johan again,
23:23and he admitted to cheating on me,
23:25but I felt like he was being more honest with me,
23:28and that made me feel like it was possible
23:31for us to try to fix our marriage.
23:42The truth is, this is going to be a journey,
23:54because, you know, I have to learn how to trust him again.
23:58This is the real?
24:00Wow.
24:00Wow.
24:01Wow.
24:03Here we are.
24:03Look at the look.
24:05Hey.
24:13Good morning.
24:14Good morning.
24:17We are so excited.
24:19We're starting our planning for next week's tours,
24:22and my amazing husband is making me tea,
24:25because he's the best in the morning, honestly.
24:27Thank you, my love.
24:32Okay, so, next week, we have two groups.
24:38So, I think you need to go to one,
24:44and I need to go to another.
24:47I'm a little nervous about that,
24:49because I don't want to go to a tour without me.
24:53It's still really hard to trust Johan again,
25:12just because of our past.
25:15And so, I definitely don't want him leading a solo tour
25:19where women are going to be hitting on him,
25:21and I don't want him to be faced with temptation
25:24that he can't resist.
25:25If you have a relationship, you have to have trust.
25:30Do you want to have my phone?
25:30You can have my phone.
25:33Where are you?
25:33Since Daniel and I came back,
25:37she always wants to check my phone.
25:39I don't like that idea, but I know that I was in the past,
25:44and so that this marriage works,
25:47I need to give my phone to Daniel,
25:49even if I don't like it.
25:51It's really upsetting to see pictures of naked women
26:15on my husband's phone,
26:17and they could be from the Internet,
26:18but they could also be real women who sent them to him.
26:21I feel so betrayed,
26:24especially because he knows how triggering this is for me.
26:48Seeing these photos triggers the trauma from the past,
27:04and it's like, I feel like I'm back in that place all over again.
27:08So, I've decided that I need to set some clear guidelines for Johan,
27:12and if he's not willing to abide by them,
27:14then this marriage is not going to work.
27:42Always, always.
27:49Daniel is exagerating and I know that we're trying to work in the relationship,
27:55but I feel like I'm not arrested.
27:56No, that's not down.
27:57We got some car, get our asses to South Jersey, got like a two-hour drive, so now I'm gonna
28:20be like the speedy men. Let's get this going. I'm Nikki. I'm 48 years old. I'm outbooking
28:28New Jersey. I'm a transsexual singer-songwriter and today I'm so excited because it's the first
28:36time I'm getting back into the studio with The Secret Girls, America's first trans pop
28:43group that I formed back in 2006. This group took a long hiatus, but now that I'm single, I'm gonna get
29:13back into the studio and get back to work. I first met Igor in Moldova about 18 years ago, but things
29:21didn't work out. Then three years ago, we got back together. We had a beautiful relationship and we
29:28decided to get engaged. We applied for the K-1 visa and while we were waiting, I had a random text
29:36message from Igor. He just sent me a text, just telling me like how everything is just, he's just
29:44done. So he text messaged you, broke up with you in a text message? Yes, through a text message,
29:48and you don't do that. That's cold. Let's go. I cried many months after the breakup. I was paralyzed.
29:59I couldn't move. I couldn't eat. I couldn't work. So right now, I just want to focus on myself,
30:07and I just want nothing to do with him.
30:09What's up? Hello, hello, hello. How are you? How are you? Nice to see you. This is Mr. Mix. Hi. I am.
30:18We are recording our very first Christmas song. I'm so excited to let the world hear what we
30:25have in store.
30:38This feels so good to finally, like, get back to what I've
30:55really loved doing because I lost myself. Getting back on stage, performing again,
31:01I need that to start rebuilding my self-worth, self-confidence.
31:09I need to remind myself who I am again. So this year at New York City Pride, I will be performing
31:16at a street festival. I'm so excited and nervous at the same time because New York City is one of the
31:23biggest prides ever. So I just hope that I kill it on stage.
31:29All right. Sounded good in there.
31:30All right. Come on.
31:31Let's go.
31:32Let's go.
31:32Let's go.
31:39Hold on. We're going to have a girl's day.
31:42It's tomorrow. I'm performing for Pride. Hi.
31:48Hi. Oh, you look so pretty.
31:50You look beautiful.
31:52How was the travel?
31:53I'll be too. Terrible. It was terrible.
31:56So my mom has finally arrived to stay with me for Pride. She came out for my performance,
32:02so I'm really excited. It's girl's day. I want to get the skin glowing. As you can see,
32:10I got some bruising. I know. I just noticed that. What's going on with that?
32:13I got my touch-up. What did I tell you?
32:16I tell you not to do that before you're going to perform.
32:19But a doll's work is never done. I needed to get my fillers and Botox. Duh.
32:25Before the big show, I just want to clear my head, calm my nerves, and have a nice spa day with my mom.
32:31I'm going to whiskey, whiskey, whiskey. Here, whisk this for me, okay?
32:35I'm going to go get something and hold your hair back. Okay, that smells.
32:40I have grown a lot closer with my mother ever since the breakup with Igor.
32:46It smells like a salad, and that's what you're about to look like.
32:50And my mother had to be there for me emotionally and physically,
32:55and she just doesn't want to see me hurt anymore.
32:58I'm truly excited that I'm going to be there for you.
33:01I know that what you went through with Justin was horrible, and you were in a bad place.
33:08For a long time. For a long time.
33:09So it's nice to see you happy and following your dream that you always had for singing and
33:14going back into what you used to do.
33:16You know, I always told you, everything happens for a reason.
33:19I just wish it didn't happen like that.
33:21I know.
33:22You know?
33:22I know.
33:24It's hard to talk about my ex relationship because, like,
33:29I've never been hurt like that.
33:32But I don't want it to let it in my head.
33:35I really need to do this show and just show I can do things on my own and not depend on anybody.
33:42You'll be good.
33:52Nicole, time to get up.
33:53Are you all getting in?
33:56Have a big day.
33:57Time to get up, honey.
33:58Come on.
33:59Come on.
34:00Come on.
34:01Oh, my God.
34:01You're so dark.
34:02I know.
34:03Oh, my goodness.
34:03Look at this.
34:04Look at that pillow.
34:06Thank God you put that on there.
34:07Today is Pride Day and I'm so excited to perform.
34:13My glam squad are going to snatch my face into some amazing perfection.
34:24I am ready to go.
34:26Look at that.
34:26I'm so excited.
34:34Come on, Lila.
34:35We've got to watch my baby girl perform.
34:37Come on.
34:37This is it.
34:40Right now, the gorgeous, the fabulous, Ms. Nikki.
34:49A lot of you guys know this one.
34:54Here we go.
34:55I'm gonna clap and hop myself.
34:57I'm gonna think about nobody else.
34:59I'm coming to get my shine.
35:01See the top boys all in line.
35:03Don't be crazy the way I move.
35:05Get down, got nothing to lose.
35:07Follow me all through this cloud.
35:09We'll shake my fast alive.
35:12Thank you so much.
35:14You guys are so beautiful.
35:21This performance has helped build me back up, find my self-esteem again,
35:26and it's given me hope for the future.
35:28I made it through a tough time, and I definitely want to find love again.
35:32But I will never put any man before my passions.
35:39Like the love, keep going.
35:41I'm doing it.
35:53I'm a big fan of you, but we need to have lines.
35:57I recently found pictures of naked women on Johan's phone.
36:21And because Johan cheated on me in the past,
36:24I'm constantly thinking, like, is he doing this all over again?
36:28So if Johan doesn't agree to my rules,
36:30we're going to have to end this relationship.
36:54Because I need my husband and I have love for you.
36:59Let's do it.
37:08I'm really angry because today I saw Johan on a speaker.
37:16I'm really angry because today I saw Johan on his phone a lot so I just decided to ask him for it
37:32and go through it and I realized that he had this like archived chat in his WhatsApp. There were all
37:38of these conversations with women but when I went into the chats all of the conversations were
37:44deleted. So it's very clear that he's having conversations with other women and then deleting
37:48them and you only delete things when you have something to hide. One of them was a name and a
38:00picture of a woman I recognized because he had dated her in the past and so I decided I was going
38:05to text her and figure out what's going on. But she wouldn't respond to me.
38:12What do you think you did? You have a list of chats, a list of chats hidden that you've deleted all the messages.
38:19What do you think you did? You have a list of chats, a list of chats hidden that you've deleted all the messages.
38:40You're on. She's not your client. You're lying to my face. You are lying to my face.
38:55You're lying to my face.
38:57You're lying to my face.
39:03Call her.
39:04Call her with your phone.
39:10Call her.
39:13I want to see the message.
39:15I want to see the message.
39:19I can't believe this bitch.
39:21I can't believe this.
39:23Do you just surround yourself with bores?
39:26I reached out to her and she immediately texted Johan
39:29and said, your wife just messaged me.
39:31What should I tell her?
39:33To be honest, I don't even know how to respond.
39:36I feel like a fool.
39:43Johan, she's your girlfriend.
39:45You have a list of hidden chats in WhatsApp.
39:47They're all women.
39:49They're your girlfriend.
39:51you.
39:52Get out of my house.
39:53I want you out of here.
39:54I want you out of here.
39:55I want you out of here.
39:57Get out.
39:58Get out.
39:59I don't care.
40:00She can buy you a new one.
40:05I just saw the message that you sent him.
40:07Instead of responding to me, you responded to him.
40:09Are you my husband?
40:10Are you want to tell me the truth?
40:12You whore.
40:13What is wrong with these people?
40:16How do you surround yourself with trash?
40:19When you have a beautiful wife.
40:21I just want him to go.
40:36It could be true that all these women in this secret chat,
40:40that all the messages have been deleted,
40:42all clients of his,
40:43and he's just afraid of me embarrassing him
40:45and reaching out to them.
40:46That it could be true.
40:47It could also be true that he's
40:49every single one of them.
40:51And I have to constantly question
40:53which of those things is true
40:55and make someone insane.
40:57It's like, it makes me feel really crazy.
41:09I just want him out.
41:10I want this marriage over.
41:19Who would have thought your girl is back in love?
41:22Butterflies.
41:23All of it.
41:24Hi.
41:25You look beautiful.
41:27We've ridden horses a million times.
41:28Oh, I think yours is farting.
41:29Good.
41:30Enjoy.
41:31It's a good present.
41:32Your green car.
41:33Hi.
41:34This name here doesn't match with my face.
41:35Look.
41:36I feel very sad and feeling trapped seeing that name, Douglas,
41:39in my green car.
41:40That doesn't reflect the person that I am now.
41:44I think I'm...
41:45I'm...
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42:05I'm...
42:06I'm ready to move.
42:07I can't find myself here anymore.
42:08What?
42:09Wait a minute.
42:10I'm really having a hard time being here now in Mexico City.
42:13The hustle and bustle of a city is...
42:16Has gotten to be too much.
42:17You're kidding, right?
42:19I have some very big news, but I think it's good.
42:25I don't know.
42:26I don't know what I'm doing!
42:28I have had the incredibly romantic idea of proposing.
42:33What if I told you that I want to marry her?
42:38But if my kids told me, like, absolutely not, I wouldn't be able to do it.
42:43And that scares the at me.
42:44I don't know.
42:45I don't know.
42:46It's...
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