Why I keep drawing. I really don not have a habit of doing this on account that I really do not like to air grievances or other things that happen in my life. Never the less I shall commence, I am someone who does get discouraged, rather a lot and I usually find myself in some sort of crisis of confidence and a lack of drive to complete many drawings. I don’t like that I have to admit this but it has become enough of a problem that it needs to be addressed. In all honesty I have no real clue on how to approach this. I do not consider it to be a crippling problem but I do believe that these periodic fits of sunken confidence, lack of motivation, and discouragement are a detriment.

As much as it would be easier to just stop drawing and pay someone else to go make drawings for me I instead utterly refuse to do so. I don’t see myself as good or great at drawing, I am being very sincere and honest with myself and others when I say that I’m competent at best. I still choose to carry on despite the lows and obligations that I perform daily; or rather nightly as is the case; I carry on because I want to do this and I don’t care what obstacles are in the way even when the negative attributes rear up and I’m facing down with discouragement I refuse to yield. I enjoy the creative process even if I’m horridly sluggish at completing a lot of drawings. I mean I joke when I say glaciers move at the speed of light compared to how fast I draw. But there is truth to that sentiment.

And yes even with the prevalence of AI I still refuse give up drawing, I just don’t have it in me to quit. I’ve already been there a couple of times in my life where I stood at that precipice and even at one point swore that I’ll never draw anything again only to start up again three to four years later. I’ve forgotten what it was that flustered me so to give up drawing and I’m rather thankful that I did otherwise. I’m confident that if I had did so then I wouldn’t have ever created the things and characters that I hold dear to me. And because of my creations, to stop drawing them would be a disservice and betrayal to everything I’ve created and all the years spent grinding and reaching the level of confidence in myself to share with others what I’ve made.