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I was there. Right where we should see each other. Right time. Right place. But you were nowhere to be found.
It was hard, the road was long and I grew tired and weary. As promised, I arrived there, taking the road less travelled on and unfortunately, you got lost.
At first, I knew it will be difficult to set out on a journey like this one. Everyone had someone they can rely on. I didn’t. I was only patient and daring, hoping to see you on that exact place.
Our rendezvous served as my only motivation, as I set out and took a small step as I start my journey. It was never easy. Never was. It was hell. As I took the first step of a thousand more after that one, I knew I was in for something great. A venture worth going for.
I was not alone. I was with everyone, like a dead fish only floating into the current of the water.
But as I have said, I was alone for everyone have somebody to rely on. I had you. I will have you, I know. Just you wait and I will have you at the end of this line.
You were supposed to be the fuel that pushes me in every difficulties I have to deal with. And the concept of us is what should be the driving force to break all of our problems in pieces, but not on this journey, no. This journey is something that I must face on my own. To find you at the end of the line as I walk alone.
Hundreds of nameless faces went through as they passed me by as I took one step after another. They came in pairs and they were happy and contented. I watched each and every pair settle down side by side, happy for they have a companion with them as they drew a dot in their journey.
They had found home. Not just a place or a person, but a combination of the two. As expected, if one is happy with his companion, they can settle down.
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I took the same road into which they had also taken. But the difference is, they get to be pushed by their significant other in life.
There was emptiness inside me as I grew weary after countless steps. I felt hungry, hungry to be with someone. We should be together in this journey, but no, I really have to face this alone.
I know that you will be there, right there in our meeting place at that exact time, and in that moment, I knew that the void in my spirit will be filled by then.
People started to run out by two’s as I walk passed them as they settled down in a certain place until I realized that everyone had settled for. I was alone, my flesh is weak, but I knew I was close to my destination. Close to where I should be.
I took the road less travelled and I got bruises on the way, but it was nothing to what I am in for. I arrived and sat down with hopes to see you soon.
I waited until the birds got tired of singing. I waited as the flowers finally smiled at their sun. I waited as the short hand of my clock took a full circular motion. You were nowhere to be found. You decided not to go. God knows what happened but I was frustrated for it was disappointing.
I continued siting down thinking for what I should have done or something I should have said. I was confused. I was in disbelief that this is real.
Until it finally came to me. This place is still the place where I will found someone significant. I am not to see you after all. I was set to find someone better, someone who will support me in every journey that I must face starting today. Someone who will tell me that I don’t need a companion to settle down, but all I need is my feet whilst I stand hoping not to fail me now.
I realized I don’t need someone to fill the emptiness inside me. The void never really existed physically. It was all in the mind. The venture I took started with a single step and ended with one also. But it was never a journey to meet you there, it was never really about you. It was about me. To find myself. I’m the one who is lost all along.
Because I realized I was there. Nobody can save me and most certainly, nobody can complete me. Seriously.
I have been searching out there, and I went and looked for everywhere for something that’s been missing right here. I finally found myself until I realized, I am complete.
