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In the deepest depths of the hole
Where the love you lean on is
Close to the door
Pretend you never saw her
Crave the love
and don’t shame her
Crave the love
Crave her love
Full force whip on a soft under belly
Peel back skin to reveal I am something
Face the end
To truly understand the beginning
Crave my love
Crave my love, and please don’t shame me
please don’t shame me
My heart is in large parts rooted in desire
chained to my soul
My love is not a shame
It will forever flourish and grow
I care so much
sometimes i fear it may be my greatest weakness
So I’ll love her till the last door can close
I don’t want peace or reconciliation in this life, I want redemption in the next
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2. |
The Carelessness Of Love
03:43
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the carelessness of love from the ones before
makes you so much easier to adore
as i lay awake at night
without you there
I pretend not to care
i keep you in my thoughts
hoping you'll appear
and us being apart was just a nightmare
that i could wake up from if i tried
my knees fall to the floor
and my hands like gravity
begging stay here with me please
my knees fall to the floor
and my hands like gravity
begging stay here with me please
i could love you endlessly
i've already loved you through eternities
and all the women before me
who have lacked empathy
should hope that they never meet me
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3. |
Drowned in Your Silence
03:16
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Why act so kind now?
Is it an apology,
or just a way to soothe your ego,
drowning the noise of your own self-hatred?
Missing you feels like self-harm,
peeling back my layers in slow, sharp agony
for someone who won’t notice
for someone who refused to notice
“I can’t deal with this.”(Deal with this)
What happened to the days
when you said you were okay with my being,
(I’m right here x2)
like a badge of purpose (But I’m right here)
“I’m the one hurt,” (I’m the one hurt)
dismissing my reasons (But I’m right here)
ignoring the plea for a thought of my feelings
(But I’m right here)
(Talking to you with your back to the door)
Was it a turn on to see me broken?
to see me cry, beg, and plead
for a glimpse of your attention,
while you turned away to crawl into your
sorrowful, selfish, hole of pride
“I can’t deal with this.”(Deal with this)
What happened to the days
when you said you were okay with my being,
(I’m right here x2)
like a badge of purpose (But I’m right here)
“I’m the one hurt,” (I’m the one hurt)
dismissing my reasons (But I’m right here)
ignoring the plea for a thought of my feelings
(But I’m right here)
(Talking to you with your back to the door)
Does it cross your mind?
the weight of your betrayal will peel you away
and slowly bury you to nothing
while i stand and watch
as you did with me
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the second i feel someone pulling away from me
i feel that i turn into this desperate being
longing for the same "feeling" that we felt before
knowing i have a purpose to fill
and all is still
and there’s only love at the core
time is like sand running through my hands
kisses only last so long
holding on without your hand
i cling to your love
every word you’ve said
tell me it’s forever
tell me our hearts will be sewed together
i’ll yearn ill linger
for you ill pull the trigger
ill cut off every finger
the tears burn on my face
thinking of your memory
you’re my favorite place
the ocean of love i have for you runs deep
every promise i’ll keep
tell me it’s forever i
tell me our hearts will be sewed together
i’ll yearn ill linger
for you ill pull the trigger
ill cut off every finger
an instant gratification
that nothing is changing
we are staying
and we are still just as in love as before
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5. |
L’appel
02:07
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If I could feel
If I could feel
Why must these gruesome hands
hold two different fates
I will succumb
to the urge
To get away
Stacked by the fruits of my labor
I am basically nothing again
Too cruel to even think about being someone
Warped by my very own hands
I wanna see the world ahead
Prove to me you’re a , person please
I’m rotted down by indifference
The touch of another will feed , my insignificance
To change my means, to feel
Yet my body will never be, able to find,
A simple resting mind
And the filth will drag me down with it
,To die
If I could feel
If I could feel
Why must these gruesome hands
hold two different fates
I will succumb
to the urge
To get away
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6. |
Interlude
01:14
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7. |
Ugly People
03:18
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sink your teeth into each other
you both start to bleed
it's fate
seeing two people breed only makes sense smelling hate you feed
i'm winning
i feel like something is missing
i need you both to suffer
take your demons out on each other
i'm in love
with the man of my dreams
being happy feels so sweet
my existence is enough to make you feel insecure don't know what for
and knowing that i want more
i want to see you both burn
crawl onto your beds of thorns
i'm winning
i feel like something is missing
i need you both to suffer
take your demons out on each other
i'm in love
with the man of my dreams
being happy feels so sweet
i want to watch it happen
i want to watch the flames grow higher
i want to watch the flesh melt off the cadavers
i don't care
i just want to see them battered
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8. |
Untitled
02:08
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you're food for thought
you feed my mind you feed my mind
I think i love you
Though i know it takes time
youre sugar cane
youre everything
you're honey in a jar
The song in my guitar
please never leave
I couldnt bear it
All I want is your heart please
And to never share
They said these are the marks of love
Pale skin virgin pure
becoming oversaturated ana coarse
every bite hurts i sting
Your smile grows wider
The praise is the worst part oh
all the feminine praise
If only they knew how sharp those pearly white teeth can get
and how deep they can sink into your flesh
I am but a simple paint stroak to a bigger picture
A painting that seems infinite
An infant barely on its feet
yet look at all the havoc
The disaster of women
I used to think I was to blame
But no one could save me
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9. |
Liliana
02:53
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Peel my skin off
Allow the air to brush against my raw flesh
Pulsing with anguish
Don't stop there
dig deeper gash out my heart
For this pain I feel must not last any longer
Frame it up
Stare at it in all its glory
It will forever beat
Despite its detachment
As long as you are alive
It will to bleed for you
Because of you
My heart is screaming
You said we were forever
As the cold weather
Takes bites at my core
It's starting to feel like never
I crave you
Like a flower craves the sun on cold days
Waiting for you to to come back
Tell me you will
My hearts is aching
Please don't leave
Serving my all to you on a platter
You deny this love you craved
Throwing it all away
You will never find another of my true color
My heart is screaming
You said we were forever
As the cold weather
Takes bites at my core
It's starting to feel like never
This fills me with rage
Ignoring my empathy is a pain
For my sake I can’t wait
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