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What Fer?
02:18
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I hope, I hope this finds you well
I’ve been told that you’re doin’ good for yourself
And I can’t imagine
What you’re like
How did this happen?
How did this happen?
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2. |
Painless
03:30
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So how’s it going? Where’ve you been?
Paused too long; said you slept in
What a clever way to
Shut me up, to me make feel at ease
You’ve got this really funny way of always shrugging off the pain.
But you're my rabbit’s foot, my safety hook
I hate you feel this way
With all the luck you’d think that brings
Would passing stars still mean a thing
It felt more than
Wishful thinking
I can’t take back that wasted time
Just know you never wasted mine
Out of reach and out of sight
I’ll wait for you
Said you’d reach out
You knew you wouldn’t want to
Crossed your mind
But you wouldn’t really know what to say
I’m here. Would you please just tell me
How you’re doing?
Said you reached out
You knew you wouldn’t want to
There wasn’t time
But you wouldn’t really know what to say
I’m here. Would you please just tell me
How you’re doing?
Wish I had a knack for telling when you lie to me
And when you say you’re fine but I see dull eyes counting sheep
Wish I had a knack for telling when you lie to me
And when you say you’re fine but I see dull eyes counting sheep
The promises we said we’d keep
Like passing painless in our sleep
This felt more than
Wishful thinking
I can’t take back that wasted time
Just know you never wasted mine
forgotten debts I’d pay
I swear I’ll wait for you
Said you’d reach out
You knew you wouldn’t want to
Crossed your mind
But you wouldn’t really know what to say
I’m here. Would you please just tell me?
How you’re doing?
I should’ve called more
I knew you wouldn’t want that
I tried your line
But I wouldn't really know what you’d say
If you’re here could you please just tell me
How you’re doing
A flame unspoken
Our last bond I swear I’ll keep
Pass the torch down onto me
I’ll do this for you
With every flicker,
With every last breath that I take,
I’ll live a life worth everything
I’ll do this for you
It won’t die
It won’t die
No, you won’t die
No, you won’t die
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Pull the petals from my stem, pull at me til I’m thorns
You’ll take from me ‘til I’m gone
Burn myself at the altar ‘til I’m callous as you
It’s all I have to offer
You’ll say you’re sorry you've been so hard on me
But there's this pattern of self hatred that I’m starting to see
You’ll play this off like you always do
Because there's a root to our problems and it’s always been you
It’s always been you
You held me back
Played out your part
Your spotlight won’t last
Take this to heart
You’ll say you’re sorry you've been so hard on me
But there's this pattern of self hatred that I’m starting to see
You’ll play this off like you always do
Because there's a root to our problems and it’s always been you
It’s always been you
I don’t expect you to be the one to answer
I don’t expect you to be the one to change for me
When you’re gone, none of this will matter.
You can stay stuck like this, and I’ll go on my way
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What’s it feel like staring at these pictures
You’ve always been the one to point out all my failures
I’m just not doing it right, I’m always playing it wrong
The note where I fucked up, your favorite part our song
What’s the point in trying hard to change this
Your always victimized, impeccable, and blameless
I’ve never made the right choice, I’m always singing it wrong
The note where I fucked up, your favorite part of our song
I’ve dropped all of my savings in the wishing well
Was it really worth the payoff, only time will tell
I’ve spent months away from home, they say they’re all proud of
me
How come I never hear from you until it’s something you need
What’s it feel like staring at these pictures
You’ve always been the one to point out all my failures
I’m just not doing it right, I’m always playing it wrong
The note where I fucked up, your favorite part our song
What’s the point in trying hard to change this
You’re always victimized, impeccable, and blameless
I’ve never made the right choice, I’m always singing it wrong
The note where I fucked up, your favorite part of our song
And if all of this is true
Well I guess it never made a fuckin’ difference to you
I did all of this for you
So tell me why does it feel like I’m alone in the room
I can see you standing in the back row
Watching kids sing back the words that they know
Did your tongue get tied?
Or did your feet get cold?
You’ve never felt like this, you’re always singing alone
What does it feel like
When I’m calling out your name?
Behind all these rows of people still
I can see you run away
Just run away
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5. |
It’s Just A Title
03:25
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There’s a child on the playground
with a broken wrist
But they’re too busy to digest
When they get home they’ll scream their head off
“Man, why do I still feel like this?”
Are things just falling apart,
or am I seeing this wrong
I’ll try to hide it all behind another pop song
No matter how many trips around the sun
It seems like this’ll follow me until I’m gone
It’s hard to deal with all this constant paranoia
Feels like a car crash coming at me from the rear view
(Is the world just out to get me)
Am I worth it?
Is this worth it?
Chalk all my failures to the absence of a martyr
Hiding behind habit ‘cause it’s easier to falter
(All you had is what you wanted)
Do you miss it?
Do you miss it all?
I know the words I sing
Won’t fix a thing
But for a second, I’ve made it
I know the words I sing
Won’t mend a thing
But for a moment, it’s painless
It’s hard to cope with all this constant paranoia
Feels like a car crash coming at me from the rear view
(Is the world just out to get me)
Am I worth it?
Is this worth it?
Chalk all my failures to the absence of a martyr
Hiding behind habit ‘cause it’s easier to falter
(All you you had is what you wanted)
Do you miss it?
Do you miss it at all?
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Very Big in Sheboygan
02:50
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You said it better
It’s easier said than done
To keep a promise
While 400 miles apart
We’ll find a way, the distance won’t seem so long
Wish I could stay, you know it’s the hardest part
To see you behind a phone screen
To not have you right beside me
When you’ve moved out
States between us
I’ll still drive up
That won’t stop this
When you’re lonely
Just remember
I’ll see you there
In December
When you're not around I feel like somebody else
It’s you
It’s you but it hurts,
To have your voice on recordin’ and not have you callin’
I found myself on the wrong side of town
When you’ve moved out
States between us
I’ll still drive up
That won’t stop this
When you’re lonely
Just remember
I’ll see you there
In December
You know I would make this drive everyday if I could
‘Cause now I’ve found a place in this world where I feel like I
should
And now I'm finally
Coming home
And now I'm finally
(But it hurts to have your voice on recordin’ and not have you
callin’)
Coming home
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7. |
All Your Luck
02:52
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You’re everything to me
Every second I spend with you is like I’m living in a
Painted world, our own movie
I only wish that you could see you like I do
Pull me up, so I can reel you in
Hold me closer, so I can tell you
When I get back home
We’ll fight those funny feelings
You’re too hard on yourself, you deserve better than this
Leave all of the details up to me
I know the future’s tough to see
Leave all the details up to me
You don’t have to worry
Puppy dog eyes shut tight
You’re so scared that you won’t see the light
Pull me up, so I can reel you in
Hold me close, so I can tell you
When I get back home
We’ll fight those funny feelings
You’re too hard on yourself, you deserve better than this
Leave all of the details up to me
I know the future’s tough to see
Leave all the details up to me
You don’t have to worry
With all your luck, you’d end up this way
You’re the brightest star I know
If every cloud covered your face
I’d still let you’d guide me home
You know that I love you
Red eyes and everything
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I remember when you said that's it
Your done with all the games, your getting over this
You only tried it on, it was a judgment slip
And not a week goes by and I can see right through
“Who knows what we might get into”
Another wasted night bleeding into you
And now you can't stop hurting
Are we having fun
Now your wallet’s fully gutted and your makeup’s come undone
Are we having fun
You should've tried harder but it’s harder to hold on
To friends you try to love when the
weight of your mistakes keep coming up
Are we having fun
You should've tried harder but it’s harder to hold on
To the way you,
You used to laugh
And the times we,
We got off track
But now you're back on it
It's hard to live like this
But harder to quit
I know it's hard to quit
For a moment
You remember what your life was like,
all before this
I bet you didn't mean to fall apart
Are we having fun
Now your wallet’s fully gutted and your makeup’s come undone
Are we having fun
You should've tried harder but it’s harder to hold on
To friends you try to love when the
weight of your mistakes keep coming up
Are we having fun
You should've tried harder but it’s harder to hold on
You should've tried harder but it’s harder to hold on
You should've tried harder but it’s harder to hold on
To friends that you still love
When the weight of one mistake keeps coming up
Are we having fun
You could've tried harder but it’s harder to hold on
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What’s the right way to handle this
I feel lost, you taught me how to grow up
You were my first friend
I feel weightless with the heaviest thing
On my chest, and it’s pulling me down
I should’ve called you back
I could’ve called you back
Now my mind is racing
With things I never said
I swear that I would change this
Make up for time I wasted
I’d hold you so much longer
But I’m my fathers son
I didn’t mean to shut you out
I would’ve stayed home one more week
I wish I knew that was the last time I would ever hear you speak
So when I face those pearly gates
I hope you’ll be there next to me
I hope we’ll make up on lost time
You’ll see the man you knew I’d be
I swear that I would change this
Make up for time I wasted
I’d hold you so much longer
But I’m my fathers son
I never said goodbye
I never said goodbye
I never said goodbye
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I’ve been trying to mend all of the seams
To everything that you’ve torn
I’ll be right here picking up pieces
Of what we had before
You know better than I do
You can’t take back what’s done
I’ve been so caught up trying to save this
I've lost what I’ve become
Tore out the roots and carved out your name
From your pedestal
I’ll look head down to keep myself grounded
Threw out your compass,
The one you engraved
I’ll trace back lines to find where I started
What can I say
What can I say
I can’t change a thing
When I know you’re not listening
What can I say
What can I say
I can’t change a thing
When I know you’re not listening
What can I say
What can I say
I’ve grown so much in seven years
So why can’t I expect the same from you
I still think of you
(But with context, I’ve let go)
In a little while
You’ll be on your own
Tore out the roots and carved out your name
From your pedestal
I’ll look head down to keep myself grounded
Threw out your compass (threw out your compass)
The one you engraved
I’ll trace back lines to find where I started
What can I say
What can I say
I can’t change a thing
When I know you’re not listening
What can I say
What can I say
I’ve grown so much in seven years
So why can’t I expect the same from you?
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Ben Quad Oklahoma
emo band and also butt rock band.
visit benquad.com
PRESS:
benquadok@gmail.com
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