Why do you do it? Probably because femininity turns you on. It’s nothing to do with being gay. Maybe you have more of a fem side you’re discovering? Idk I’m not an expert, but there’s a bunch of the queer/etc community here (crossdressers probably too) that could give better answers than me.
My advice would be, don’t be self critical on yourself, or feeling bad because of what society says men should or shouldn’t do. You’re allowed to be a complex person.























I face it and try to conquer the fear. Then I turn the shower on and swap between facing towards and away while the water warms up