musings.
God, relationships are so draining.
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Beneath the mushiness, butterflies, orgasms, and all lie some unspoken deeds like emotional manipulation and silent resentment that we barely hear about. I’ve seen friends go through all of these in silence, and it is disheartening to find them in these shoes. They are being spoken of in hushed tones that you won’t hear a whiff of unless you’re being talked to about it. You then begin to wonder and say to yourself, How did you get here? Why are you still here? It can never be me, abbl.
Love is sweet, and we can’t escape it. People crave it. They want it, they want to experience it, they want all the good things that come with it. Humans are wired for this thing, love, to happen. Hence, most people tend to overlook some of the issues that emanate from it and stick with the flow. They get clouded by the love, as it can be intoxicating and destructive, depending on how you balance it out. Either they have a wholesome experience in it or get their eyes peeled. It’s really up to them.
There are zero manuals on how relationships go. You can’t even advise somebody who is in love. They don’t hear anything at that point. There’s a reason why this statement, “You accept the love you think you deserve,” comes up when folks are having doubts or issues in their relationship. The statement sounds ridiculous on first reading, but after a little introspection, you get to understand the intent behind it. It is not to excuse bad behaviour, but it holds some weight in the long run.
So, if we all want love, are we ready for the intricacies that come with it? Are we chasing a feeling or running away from ourselves? Maybe that’s why we keep trying anyway. The hope that it is going to feel like home
