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N for Now
The someday I imagined
Letter N of my ABCs of letting go, a healing journey in 26 letters.
Start with A here.
Now
Is where I find myself
in acceptance of the glorious and unknown
where the mood is neutral
and the distance between then and now has done its perfect work
Because to look back through me
I am thankful the emotions I once felt are no thought naturally
As I inspire, he has expired from inside me
Now
Is where I mine my consciousness
holding on to dear life
The heavy, defensive stance has melted
giving way to warmth unfurling
I hold quiet gratitude for the heartbeat that kept rhythm
through loss and break;
reformed me from health scares, trauma bonds, and work wounds
Turning survival into a resolute reclamation of my light
I still see life through lens of unjaded wonder and awe
never blind to beauty unfolding and revealing
little revelations from excavations of what is not mine
