*insert the thinker statue*
— for aura
Sometimes my mind tricks itself (I guess?) into only seeing dead ends. So last year, I pinned up a quote on my desk that says, “Be the person who still tries.” I told myself that if I fail to commit, I can still try and not take the consequences so personally — like I always did actually (turns out I’m just in denial).
Because why bother with things I never do anyway, as if there’s some moral police blowing a whistle in the back of my mind?
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At the end of the day, when I’m lying in bed and someone texts me, “What’s up?” I answer, “The ceiling.”
Because my head is sinking, down into water, deep, and the pressure building until I feel like I might burst. Just to feel … well.
Life will always find a way, spinning itself into a cocoon, waiting to become a butterfly.
One day, I’ll be mature enough to commit and not to leave easily.
AMEN
