Why Anonymous?
Because My Life Looks Perfect (On Paper!)
You might wonder why someone would choose to write anonymously in a world where everyone is trying so hard to be seen.
People build personal brands. They curate identities. They collect validation like badges of honor.
But I find a sense of security and protection in this anonymity. Behind the screen, I could be anyone- the girl next door, the CEO of a multinational company, or maybe even a personal assistant to an indomitable, powerful gang leader!
I could be writing this curled up on my couch or I could be sitting in a high rise building of my workplace, pretending to work while secretly chasing my dream of becoming a writer.
Anything could be true.
And that’s the beauty of it.
See, in my real life, I am the ‘sorted’ one — which is just a polite way of saying I’m the person everyone assumes is ‘fine’. Top of the class, never missed a deadline, always showed up. The human equivalent of a five-star review. Glowing. Consistent. Suspiciously perfect.
So yes — on paper, I am doing great.
The problem is — I am not paper!!
Four years ago, I joined a startup company.
Fresh out of college, and as their twelfth employee, my job description mostly included ‘figuring things out’. And I figured things out alright.
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In a few months, I am marrying the Founder- CEO of the very same company.
Now, nothing unusual about falling in love.
Love, in fact, with this incredible, beautiful, young man has been nothing less than a dream.
But life has a strange way of quietly taking control of the story you ‘think’ you are writing.
Today I am 25, working, engaged, reasonably fit, and still occasionally reflecting on my decision to leave the startup before it took off., and wondering who exactly is in the driving seat of this journey called ‘my life’?
I have always believed in moving forward. But I wonder, if in moving forward I have left behind more than just a job, and a few people.
Well, those doubts are for later.
For now, I find myself asking one question quite often these days.
And this blog exists to find the answer to that very same question.
Because sometimes, some questions are only honest when nobody knows who you are.
