You don’t know me. I’m covered from head to toe with scars from growing up in a world much like the one you grew up in. Hospital trip after hospital trip, police officers taking Polaroids, swearing that my brother and I were wrestling and a mirror fell on me, or my hand got broke because I crashed an atv. I was locked in a room and starved to the point that I was stunted, the only male in my family who isn’t over 6ft tall. I sat in a courtroom after the cotton swab that was shoved in my ass didn’t provide the evidence needed to put a motherfucker in jail.

Somehow, I just don’t have a taste for violence.

I’m not sad that Charlie Kirk died. I’m sad that someone killed another human being in front of the world and I’m terrified of what comes next. I’m terrified that he’ll be a martyr and inspire more people than he ever could have inspired living his life to its natural conclusion. I have no doubt that some of that inspiration will be violent retaliation.

Just like when the moron shot at Trump and missed. You can go back to the comment I made that day. It went something like, “Well, they made him a goddamn hero and the election is over now.”

I think we could have prevented the rise of Donald Trump. I think people like Kirk and Shapiro could be made irrelevant. I believe we can do that with our goddamn brains and we don’t have to be apes to get what we want.

Dude ran his mouth. That’s what he did. No one should die for that.

You want violence? I’m just hoping it comes to those of you who do.

So Charlie Kirk was Hitler?

We’re just doomed to do this over and over again, aren’t we?

Just an endless cycle of brutality.

As though one day we’ll have just enough bloodshed to have everything we ever wanted?

Get off my nuts with that shit.

Just like every other time it’s happened, some naive kids will go out and die for all the morons who should be old enough to know better.

Oh well, I guess.

No, and that’s why we’re still doing this shit.

It just seems to me that we’re doomed as a species to continuously roll backwards into monstrosity and suffering. We’re animals. We really are.

Even the people who want a better and more just world think that it needs to be covered in flames first to get there.

It’s all some big game and the only people who keep losing are the regular people who just want to eat and not go to bed hungry.

When some big war comes, it will be fought by children again while all the so called thinkers on all sides dream of rebuilding in the aftermath, only to end up right back in the same mess all over again.

That’s why I’m so angry. Even the people who study history seem to miss everything between the lines.

Someone will take Charlie Kirk’s place. They always do. The next person will rally people to retaliate and be more extreme on his rhetoric.

When the next big war comes, we need to just take all of the people who advocated for it and throw them into a field and let them have it out. That isn’t ever how it goes though.

Thank you.

Well go be violent then. Fuck it up for those of us that don’t want any part in your bullshit.

I’m out. I’m done. I’m tired of reading shit from you cowards who do nothing day in and day out but inspire crazy people.

You’re animals. You’re no better than goddamn wild animals…except you call other people to violence and do nothing. That’s all that is left of your humanity. You’re like Hitler. You dream of gassing your enemies but you’re too cowardly to run the camps yourselves.

Comment back when you’ve killed someone you coward. Go on. Get out there. What’s stopping you?

Let me guess, you’re too comfortable. Your life is ok. Day in and day out with your little dopamine hits. Dreaming and doing nothing.

Go on, coward. Kill someone. Or are you somehow above it? Is that why I’m reading about people other than you in the news every day?

Shut your goddamn mouth until you’ve fired a shot. When you do, I hope you’re crucified in the streets.

I’m so done. I really am.

You guys don’t understand. I am so sick of seeing calls for violence. I’m so sick of seeing coldness toward violence.

Someone is going to want to retaliate. That’s what the fuck violence brings. Unless you win completely, and the only kind of motherfuckers who win completely are people who exterminate everyone who opposes them.

Is that what the fuck we want?

Do we want to see important figures in a left-wing movement assassinated? Someone is going to be upset enough to fire a gun at someone you care about.

Violence begets violence.

I can’t stand reading this shit anymore. I really can’t.

A bunch of fucking keyboard warriors stoked as shit when someone gets killed. Never ever fucking smart enough to think about what comes next. Well, get ready for it. Someone is going to be angry enough to shoot back, that is a promise. Go look at a fucking history book. Nobody takes this kind of thing sitting down.

If you think anything good is going to come from this, you are a goddamn fool.

Leaders in a movement you care about are about to be assassinated in retaliation by some moron with a fucking gun.

I’ve got to get the fuck away from all this noise. I’m half tempted to fucking throw my phone in the creek and never look back.

Y’all want to kill each other and then cheer when someone is fucking murdered, fine.

Goddamn.

I fucking hated Charlie Kirk. If he had died naturally, I’d be the first one to piss on his fucking grave. Some idiot made a martyr, that’s what they did. Curious motherfucking kids who never heard anything he said will now listen to everything he ever said. You can’t kill an Ideology by killing the people who espouse said ideology.

I just want to beat my head into a fucking wall. I’m so fucking burned out. Fuck anybody who is OK with bullets traveling through the flesh of any of their fellow men. Go into a field and fire the guns yourselves against other idiots who want to fire guns, the rest of us are sick of your fucking violence.

I bought my crappy little gun for 80 bucks.

I guess I need to find out what tools I need to repair a 15th century… ohhhhh.

Haha

I have never been on a road like the one in the picture.

I’d have a nervous breakdown.

Or in my case the severe lack of chin.

The good lord really fucked me over all the way around.

But that’s ok, at least my brother’s gitten’ paid

I only recently started. I should have played it years ago. Man oh man. It’s everything I needed.

I have always had that attitude.

My best friend used to bitch at me for being so careful all the time when I was younger. “Bro, fucking just look at this snake! Quit being afraid of everything. Someone could run your ass over with a car on the walk back home and you’d bleed out wishing you had done something.”

He died at 18 in a car accident.

I mean, well, I always speak that attitude. I’m still not going around looking for danger. I do what I enjoy, which is modest by any standards, but if I wanted to eat nothing but ice cream and weigh 500lbs I would do just that.

No matter what I do, I’ll die. No matter how much I loved or hated it, I won’t remember any of it.

Dam u!! Y my computer not start up n e more?

Who knew bands had so many unreleased songs?

Man oh man. I went Napster crazy.

A couple billion years from our point of view.

Dude doing the programming hasn’t even left for lunch yet.

That hasn’t been true for me.

One of the worst experiences I had was when I became the number one seller in the office. I finally asked for a promotion, filled out a résumé, went into the office to speak with the boss.

“You are just too valuable as a salesperson. I understand that it can be frustrating, but when you’re doing 40% better than the best person under you, that is where you are most valuable.” If it had been 20%, they would have asked me to manage and, “duplicate myself.”

It is crazy how I finally had to get what I wanted. I tested them. I didn’t show up to work for a week. I figured if they fired me, I’d just go find another job. That isn’t what happened, when I walked through the door, “oh thank god. We’re having a terrible week, we need you to come in here and work your magic. I was scared you quit bro.” I said, “oh I was going to, it really doesn’t make sense to stay at a place where you can’t grow in any direction and get anything better than a 10 cent raise every 6 months.”

After that, I was able to work three days in sales, two days in sales verification, two dollar raise.

I also got paid an additional four dollars an hour to train people, but only when I was training.

I also got to be a back up manager, where I also made four extra dollars on the hour when I was needed. It wasn’t constant, but it was always rad when it happened. I was also allowed 4 hours of overtime and they ignored the fact that I didn’t clock out for lunch.

I should have stayed in sales, but it really does drive you into the dirt eventually.

That company went out of business in 2009. They also did fundraising and I guess the owners were stealing money.

Thank you for this comment.

The asshole you replied to can’t seem to grasp what you’re saying, but I do and I appreciate it.

And notice he quickly replied to you but ignored what I said.

Oh well.