Thank you, I’m going through a lot rn, but I wanna kinda restart my life with my partner.

IDK if I wanna go back to university, I kinda wish I could but I still fear failing again. I’m 26 and I feel like the older I get the less likely it will be.

I have a lot to work on. I suspect I have ADHD but only been diagnosed with autism and anxiety.

And yes I plan a lot, I plan too much. Rarely planning works but I still overplan.

Thanks for your message. I appreciate it.

OMG YOU ARE SO CUTE!

She usually does get conspiratorial. But I’ve experienced it weaponized against me. She thinks I dont have free will or free thinking. If I agree with her in something or do something she approves, its ok, but if I disagree or do anything she doesn’t approve of, then is because I must be being manipulated by someone else.

This was such a problem when I became a teenager and I started to defend myself because she said that “someone” must have been manipulating me to go against her.

She also use to think about the worst case escenario as the first option, like getting robed, mugged, killed, and is very distrustful. She also constantly think that people are conspiring to sabbotage her, including me.

One time as a teenager I left my phone at home and my dad called me, thats how she discovered I was in contact with him. And she berated me and called me a traitor and said I wanted to ruin her by conspiring with him. Inward just trying to her some connection to my dad but she was having non of it.

And also, if I was performing bad at university, must have been because I was doing drugs, because according to her “depression is for 12yos”.

Also she has became more religious in recent years, specially after my grandma died. She was never atheist or agnostic, but certainly not religious. Now she prays before leaving the house. And says that things goes well because the “Animas” are protecting us (I have no fucking idea of what Animas are, but some Catholics here believe in that, I think is like souls of our ancestors or something).

Thanks, yes I was suspecting on BPD. Thinking about it is what would make more sense alongside the narcissism.

Yes my sister is obsessed with appearances, so is our mom and so it was our gandma. She also defends my dad because, to her, he was a good stepfather. After she got into the US, she became the superficial white passing latina who can’t say anything bad about the US and everything back home must be terrible and horrible, and if we say things are going ok she takes it as a personal attack. idk if she might be narcissistic, we have almost nothing in common, so we don’t talk often.

Problem is I dont have actual AMOLED devices yet.

Vibia Perpetua. Look her up. Is a recognized saint. 3rd century I think.

Is the name of an historical queer character.

Ohhh cool haha

Yeah. It tastes good so far.

It tastes good so far. I hope I can let it age so long. But I will eventually have enough equipment to let some age for a year.

Would be amazing

In my language is Hidromiel lol

Lol

I guess I already know the answer but still need to process it. I think I still need measurement that I’m doing the right thing. Thank you. Yes I know I need to end things.

We don’t actually live together, I haven’t move in because he lives far away from my workplace and I live closer to it, and also because of the issues I told.

No, he doesn’t have keys to my house.

No, he doesn’t have guns (we don’t live in america).

Yes, he has been to the office I work at multiple times.

Yes, I have my own place.

Yeah I should. Thanks for the recommendation.

Yeah. Thats why im trying to get some more direct inspiration and not just get the classic Japanese style kind of powers.

Any kind of anime like powers inspired by a culture. For example. A bird man with incredible force Sun fueled powers, or a Woman can turn into a Snake, or a silent assasin that confuses their victims with their whistling.

YAY! Amazing!

They sold out and now is an advertising mess.