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Cake day: April 27th, 2024

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  • It’s even worse when one or both of your parents, as well as yourself, are all undiagnosed ADHDers, and the parents act as though you’re going through a personal failing and need to “get your head in the game” or “just concentrate”, even though in their past they were exactly like you, while they believe they’re completely typical, which also sets an artificially high barrier to actually trying to convince them it’s not simply a lack of willpower.



  • Recently I’ve found that sleep duration doesn’t really matter, it’s more the quality of sleep. Like I tend to get to sleep around 4am, and wake at 9am (with fairly large fluctuations in actual length), but the times I wake up feeling shit were mostly just discomfort (maybe from overheating in bed, maybe the sheet got pushed together and now has a peak that’s entirely supporting my leg, etc.)

    Ive also generally gotten better sleep since putting on a sleep mask (since the light from behind the curtains is pretty distracting, and the mask blocks it almost completely), and putting on one of my comfortable or favourite hoodies.

    It’s not foolproof though, I still get shit sleep a lot, but hey, it’s at least better than it was haha


  • Man I haven’t gotten that “30 minutes of uninterrupted listening” shit in a few months. I swear, they’ve been slowly increasing the amount of ads per song, from like 1 ad per 4 songs to I shit you not, 2 ads per song. I usually have to restart the web page since it gets stuck on desktop, or close the app on mobile. They’re probably overcompensating since they’re salty they aren’t getting any revenue from me.



  • High school was pretty shit in terms of this, as I would be taking a short break, sometimes in the classrooms, sometimes in the study session rooms, sometimes on the way to a class, and a teacher tells me to put my phone away, even though nobody seems to bat an eye apart from the couple opportunistic teachers. Of course I’ll oblige, so it’s not taken away and I can’t access internet I need the rest of the day (the wifi was kinda dodgy sometimes) or take a rest, then I’d take it back out immediately when they leave.

    And at parent teacher interviews, the teachers would say something like “he needs to ask more questions”, or “he gets distracted too easily”, but then say “his work quality is incredible, but took his time”. It’s as though they think the issue is because I used my phone in school when I shouldn’t have (according to local law banning phones in schools), but it was only because the days wore me down when I forced myself to be “normal” and get the work done in class, and I’d still be worn down (although less severely) after school if I didn’t make myself do work, since excessive background noise has really made it difficult.

    Luckily, I finished like 5 or 6 months ago, so I don’t need to deal with that anymore, and university is treating me well, since it’s online and you just complete tasks as you go without deadlines, and I let myself get distracted when I need to so I’m more productive when I’m not distracted.










  • It’s even weirder for me, like ive got the voice in my head, but also a whole suite of 3D visualisations of tens of thousands of my memories complete with the 3d environment, sound, the clothing I wore, the temperature, humidity, air pressure, the exact location, etc, I can even just visualise entire buildings I’ve been in a few times, like friends houses, the primary, secondary and high school campuses I attended, literally anything. Ive also got my entire music playlist of probably 4000+ songs completely backed up in my nogin, and a whole heap more.

    And then my brain just decides “let’s sort through the trauma first shall we”, like bro, you have virtually infinite other things to think about, and you pick the worst?