As a second child… I always felt like a “backup” plan to my parents lol

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    2 days ago

    Really depends on the era.

    Today second-born gets all the benefits (or most anyway) without having to really be responsible for anything.

    • I get to become a 黑孩子 for the first few years of my life…

      Mom always be like: “I had to pay several tens of thousands of ¥ rmb to get your legal identity”.

      Like I remember she say it so often during my childhood and constantly recounting the story of illegally giving birth to me…

      She makes me feel like I owe her a debt… like on top of the “debt” of her taking care of me…

      I already got rejected by a government…

      I’d feel very sad if she stops talking to me…

      Like…

      I feel like I need her affirmation to feel like I deserve to exist…

      otherwise I’m just some child that’s never supposed to be born and even the mom disinherited…

      Like… what right do I even have to exist in this world…

      So I really need my mom’s approval…