12:49
oh fuck
i feel like im forgetting something
love, was it you?
did i leave you all alone in your room
gathering dust on the corner of your bed,
with one of your strings out of tune?
even with your hands holding onto mine,
even when you told me
that it feels nice to have me here.
i know you asked me to stay over
yet, i still sneaked out of your room at 12:49 AM
just to chase the last train
just so i could make it back home.
Get wel.’s stories in your inbox
Join Medium for free to get updates from this writer.
im sorry, love
for making you slam the door in my face like that.
i've been knocking for the past hour,
checking my phone every five minutes,
reading all the things i've said
as if you'd suddenly change your mind.
babe, aren't you going to come downstairs
and wake me up from this nightmare?
i never meant half the jokes,
nor half the lies that came out of my mouth.
maybe i've forgotten most of it.
maybe you'll forgive me.
babe, please don't ever believe me.
but, if there was a place i could call home
it'd be in your arms, love.
they said that even the wrong train
will eventually take you to the right station.
i said that it's bullshit
because each and every stop
just feels more wrong than the last.
every thought keeps taking me back
to that same place all over again, your place.
you always talk about how it's all just in my head
well, get the fuck out my head, girl
it's to the point where i can't even believe my eyes
i could've sworn i saw you standing there
perhaps that's just the stop sign screaming.
babe, what are you doing?
are you going out somewhere tonight?
i'll take that late-night train
get off at your stop
i'll walk all the way to your place
if that's what it'll take for you to open the door.
because our love just takes me back to seventeen
back when pulling an all-nighter
felt like a good idea,
back when we thought
we had all the time in the world.
and when you asked me to stay again,
i think i'll finally listen
i'll stay a little longer,
i'll even stay the night, for you.
for us.
yet before you wake up.
i'm already at the station,
waiting for the first train in the morning
leaving that same note on your mirror
