EP 23
Boquete Panama. I stayed here for 5 nights. Mostly quiet, inexpensive, good internet, and I needed a break. For two days I could not function. Too tired and for the first time, that I acknowledge, burnt out. I know we travelers are living the dream, but that does not mean its easy. Pack, move, unpack, setup, so things, record, edit, update, charge, pack again, find a place, get clean, laundry, and on it goes. I got physically exhausted from the Lost and Found Hostel. So, here I sat. And I ate a lot of frogs. A lot of GREAT things happened.
I got rested. Got a little work done on some tunes. Recording music did not work out, but I learned some things. Got a BIG video edited and posted. But lots of things like banking, getting ready for the next phase. Talking to folks back home. Some repairs. And really ready to go. Been up since 6:15, and time to get moving. Two coffees, yogurt, editing, and almost packed. Still have a few town things to do before I leave, and whoever moved in is really noisy. I gotta cook before I leave.
So there’s the normal travel blog. Not so interesting. But the day to day. What is the deeper meaning? We all do exactly the same thing. Whether you are traveling of not. The truth is we are ALL traveling. Traveling thru space on a spinning ball. Traveling thru time towards our eventual dissolution. Traveling thru mind, emotion, confusion, pain, suffering, joy, happiness, traveling thru life. And it is a journey. But not a destination. I have NO final destination. People ask where I’m going. My answer is everywhere. People ask how long will I travel. My answer is till either my health forces me to stop or I stop enjoying it. But the actual journey thru life will never cease. For me, death, like life is an illusion, or I should say, largely an illusion. Buddhist say that we live with a basic wrong idea of what this life is. Yes, there is a conventional truth. But there is an ultimate truth as well, and all of these concepts are as well wrong due to the limitations of language.
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Here is my conundrum for the moment. There are people I need to say things to. There are people I need to have gone. Or do I. Lets phrase this better. There are things I FEEL I need to say to people. There are people I would LIKE to have gone, where I no longer wish to share this life with. And now we can get to the ultimate truth. FEEL, LIKE. Emotions. These “things” are emotion based. It doesn’t mean they are wrong. But emotion means ego. Emotion ONLY relates to ego. No ego, emotions are gone. And ego means the sense of self. And Who Am I is the the greatest question one can ask yourself. My next song will be based on the writings of Bhagavan Sri Ramana Maharshi, a paper called Who Am I….a most interesting paper. Here’s the deal on it. Its not truth. The entire purpose of the paper is not to tell you the truth, but to cause you the see from a completely different perspective. To alter your mind set. And its REALLY powerful. It begins the journey of seeing EVERTYHING ina different light. Its like ok, you see the world. Now, lets look at it in ultraviolet light. Everything looks different. And that’s what this writing is all about. If you read it and only focus on the words, you’ll never get it and stop reading, cause its hard. And generally speaking, nothing really worthwhile doing in this world is easy.
So there ya go. Another chapter in the ongoing drama of a nobody’s life, with like 3 people reading this. And I still do it cause even if nobody reads it, its still worth it. I can explaing this simply. Everything we do is the same. Everyone you know will eventually be dead. And NOBODY will read anything. All actions will disappear, thus all actions are equal. All of them. Good and bad. So, don’t do things due to exposure. Do them for INposure. For the internal journey. Cause in ultimate truth, that’s all there is.
Peace.
