endless thoughts
If I could write down all the words and whispers in my mind, the book would be thicker than any book ever written. I’m exhausted from trying to explain the never-ending storm of thoughts in my head. If there were any way other than death to make my mind go silent forever, I would choose it without hesitation.
But really, who can I talk to about this? Friends? Are you sure they wouldn’t start looking at you differently right after hearing this? A psychologist? Are you certain they wouldn’t send you to a mental hospital or give you pills when all you need is for someone to listen — without any judgment, without a diagnosis?
So, tell me, what should people like us do?
“Just sleep, it will help you get rid of negative thoughts and everything that comes with them,” They say. Have you ever struggled to fall asleep with a heavy heart and a restless mind? Maybe it’s easy for you to say something like that. And honestly, I’m not surprised when I meet people like them.
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That’s why it’s hard to talk about this with someone who doesn’t understand what it truly means. They will think we are strange, maybe even crazy. Even though all we want is to be heard — nothing more. And just so they know, people like us should never be left alone, or else too many thoughts and whispers will start to appear.
Maybe that’s also why people like us are not afraid of being alone — especially not of loneliness.
So, how do i deal with this when it happens to someone close to me?
There’s nothing you can do except calm them down without judging them. Some prefer to be alone to ease their thoughts, some go outside for fresh air, some spend time with friends, and many do other things.
