Dear JJ,
I don’t know what you’re really up to. A very difficult one to decode. I always find myself asking whether you like me or not.
Our existence were both known to each other since 2020. 5 years have passed already and I still want to get to know you but I am a coward.
Our lives are a complete opposite, I think. And I am truly scared that once you get to know the real me, you won’t like it.
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Normally, I am okay with that thought because I know I can’t force anyone to like me but with you, I always want to put my best foot forward. With this, I know I have a very little chance to be close to you.
I am truly sorry for making you feel like I have used you just to spare some time but in reality I am scared of the outcome; I know I will fall too hard while watching you feel nothing. It happened once and I am not doing it twice.
So this is me writing, to close the chapter I should have never reopened.
But if the time went by and we crossed our paths again, I hope I am already on a better mindset so I could have the courage to take a chance with you.
