Day 14
I’ve been wondering, what would be a good life strategy for me?
I start by looking at my current strategy, making myself more aware of it. My strategy voice says
Be in bed by 10pm if possible, eat mostly plants and try not to eat too much, especially in the evening, reminding yourself that you’re not threatened with anyone grabbing your food away, so it’s okay to chew. Walk, drink coffee once or twice a day with your husband, feel your heart, feel your body, notice the gentle ecstasy from gliding across the room, folding laundry, washing some dishes, inhaling the fragrance of the peaches in summer. Keep interesting tabs open for future reference. Pray.
And very important: try to be honest with others or at least to notice when you’re not. That is to say, be honest with yourself, or try to be… because you don’t necessarily know when you’re not. But there are signs, and notice those… like when it’s difficult to take in certain feedback or a response from someone. Then you know there’s something coming into view that might be interesting and beneficial to look at… whether this be the truth in what they’re saying or the doubts in yourself that what they say provoke.
Try Wu Wei. “Easy is right”. Don’t use will-power to force yourself to do things that you don’t want to do. Your are fortunate you don’t have to.
And notice that Wu Wei is a tricky one! Here’s an easy improvement in strategy that you keep ignoring: show up more often. Even when you think something might be difficult, if you also think it might be good and beneficial to do it, give it a chance. Try, more often, just showing up and committing to 15 minutes of dancing or writing, for example, even when you start out completely uninspired, or try reaching out to friends and family. It’s so easy for you to get isolated, you know. Keep in mind that Wu Wei is not at all the same as avoidance and denial and is not an excuse for not responding to your email.
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One of your favorite things to do is consulting the Tarot. Do that now.
Tarot, can you please give me a snapshot of my life strategy?
I draw VIIII L’Hermite, VIII La Justice and XVII Le toille.
Looks pretty good!
Hermit and Justice represent the mature, wise mother and father, though ideally they would switch places, since the eight would seem better placed before the nine.
Looking more closely at this draw, what does it tell me? The hermit might represent my continuous state of crisis, and the justice, being a perfectionist, might be looking at that and being more or less honest about the state… but she’s also cutting it off with her sword. She might be trying to use her higher values and all her many rules that she loves, to control and keep crisis at bay. Also, it might be that she’s cutting up the stick of this kind, wise hermit, just because he’s an old man and she might have more than a bit of anger against old men. So, she’s not fully making use of her superior stability to give some grounding to the crisis, supporting the hermit’s talent at letting go…
As for the Hermit, he’s walking right into Justice’s sword… not seeing that he has her behind him. He doesn’t notice that she’s there… Maybe it’s his fault that things aren’t going so well! How did he get in front of Justice? Maybe he’s not so wise after all. Can’t he look where he’s going? He’s looking at the past… shining his light on the whole catastrophe of the past and walking into the sword of a castrating Justice… not good, Mr. Hermit!
So with such a parental situation, how could the star ever thrive?
What action(s) can I take that would support the Hermit and Justice in their relationship? If they would just switch places, that would be so supportive for the Star, who would then be able to carry out her work in the world with a firm mother-father foundation.
