25/9/26
18:40
oh it is so hard to let go of you, ray. save me im dying, im losing this fight but trying my best to survive. i think its about time i stopped running from myself and all of the emotions that i have to face. today for the first time, i craved the world outside what i know, have seen and experienced. i unlocked a new level of hunger, thirst i never knew i had. inside of me. im sobbing again. will i ever get over this? i fear this experience has become apart of me. although i do not know yet how it intends to affect me mentally. how insane will i go? what is my limit?
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i somehow always have the right thing to tell everyone else on how to escape what is punishing them mentally cause everything is absurd and meaningless but i also find myself doing the same thing.
22:44
chill day icl. had some wine, made badass rice with scent leaf (in love, new obsession) sadly i didn’t take a photo and just chilled mostly. i didnt do kitchen duties tonight & it felt great. i dont have solid plans for my weekend but im hoping i can make some. my baby topped up my ouid and im super grateful. up nepaaaaa!! i’m sooo sleepy. i didnt sleep AT ALL last night and i need to make up for that. cheers to the weekend! we go again tomorrow.
